Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Entering into a church internship

I am finally sitting down to really look at the requirements for the internship that I will begin in the next few weeks. I am returning to CBC (now known as Elgin Community Church) to go at the internship for a second time. Although the internship has not yet begun, I have realized that entering into this position does not work the same way as registering for another graduate school class, or even volunteering for a position at a church.

When I began at ECC (2004), I went in as a scared student, who saw a need (playing guitar), and was wanting and willing to provide for that need. Over the years, without really thinking about, I developed deep relationships with members of the congregation and the staff. Moving from a volunteer position to an internship was natural, for not much changed other than the amount of time devoted to preparing, studying, and socializing.

In the last few months, Jamie and I have been going back to ECC. People have been overwhelmingly hospitable and friendly. I have been mentioned by the leadership on a number of occasions for different reasons in front of the congregation. People have told me time and time again that they cannot wait for me to come back. It feels good to be felt missed and needed. But...

I fear that my role in the church will no longer be led by humility, but from a perceived notion that I have something to offer. I fear that I will look to myself, my wife, or my mentors to answer and instruct rather than to the Holy Spirit. I fear that I will try and change or control things.

So this is my request, to anyone who may read this: to pray that the Holy Spirit would lead and guide me with wisdom and knowledge, but through humility and service. That I would be able to look into the lives of my family at ECC and see Christ, and that I could somehow reveal Christ to them as well.

Back

When I began this blog, I had expectations that I would be able to maintain a blogging consistency of a blog a week at minimum. That quickly failed. A good friend of mine gave a critique on my blogs saying that they were much too long. Well, I don't think that I know how to write any other way. I partly gave up the blogging because I wanted to write something that people would be willing to read (...short...), and I could not accomplish this and say what I wanted to say. So I hope to begin again, leaving aside any hopes of making these blogs short or intelligent. I hope, once again, to use the blog as a means to journal learnings, questions, and theology, in a selfish way that benefits primarily my own ability to communicate through the written.

Entering into a church internship

I am finally sitting down to really look at the requirements for the internship that I will begin in the next few weeks. I am returning to CBC (now known as Elgin Community Church) to go at the internship for a second time. Although the internship has not yet begun, I have realized that entering into this position does not work the same way as registering for another graduate school class, or even volunteering for a position at a church.
When I began at ECC (2004), I went in as a scared student, who saw a need (playing guitar), and was wanting and willing to provide for that need. Over the years, without really thinking about, I developed deep relationships with members of the congregation and the staff. Moving from a volunteer position to an internship was natural, for not much changed other than the amount of time devoted to preparing, studying, and socializing.
In the last few months, Jamie and I have been going back to ECC. People have been overwhelmingly hospitable and friendly. I have been mentioned by the leadership on a number of occasions for different reasons in front of the congregation. People have told me time and time again that they cannot wait for me to come back. It feels good to be felt missed and needed. But...
I fear that my role in the church will no longer be led by humility, but from a perceived notion that I have something to offer. I fear that I will look to myself, my wife, or my mentors to answer and instruct rather than to the Holy Spirit. I fear that I will try and change or control things.
So this is my request, to anyone who may read this: to pray that the Holy Spirit would lead and guide me with wisdom and knowledge, but through humility and service. That I would be able to look into the lives of my family at ECC and see Christ, and that I could somehow reveal Christ to them as well.

Back

When I began this blog, I had expectations that I would be able to maintain a blogging consistency of a blog a week at minimum. That quickly failed. A good friend of mine gave a critique on my blogs saying that they were much too long. Well, I don't think that I know how to write any other way. I partly gave up the blogging because I wanted to write something that people would be willing to read (...short...), and I could not accomplish this and say what I wanted to say. So I hope to begin again, leaving aside any hopes of making these blogs short or intelligent. I hope, once again, to use the blog as a means to journal learnings, questions, and theology, in a selfish way that benefits primarily my own ability to communicate through the written.